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matter of the heart is something that is unexplainable. today I felt soo down....why la rase cmni....ntah la...I just dont really know what is happening in the in my chest......just wish I could find my soul mate soon...life seems to be boring especially with work like ytl.....at leaset with a motivation of family-hood all the hard work is paid in cash with a great smile and a great big hug once you come back  home...greeted by loving wife and later playful children that has awaited you return since lunch....all the pain..the misery would go away.....but day by day I am loosing trust in such a perfect life.....maybe that is just my idea of a ideal life.....hopefully I could get a family and I my self work in the most closest synonym to my ideal lifestyle...